151st state

::You can hide behind your stories, but don't take me for a fool!::

aku rasa aku dah tulis lebih dari itu... tulah, one blog for every new stage of life. apsal x maintain satu je. some sort of escapism? heheh.

i termimpi aku iye2 ckp dgn kawan aku yg aku boleh carikan keta kancil dgn sgt murah (kancil ex850.. ada eh?). kawan aku pun semangat la dgr, last2 mintak no tepon yg berkenaan. masa tu aku dah gelabah, so aku main bantai je sebut nombor tepon sapetah @ reka2 no tepon. sekali nombor tu lebih kurang dgn no. tepon kawan aku itu. pastu kawan aku pun dah x percaya kat aku dah (not before aku cuba clarify kenapa dua2 nombor tu lebih kurang, tapi of course she didn't buy it). termangu2 aku sendiri bila bangun dr tido.

if dreams were my real thoughts, it saddens me that the best thing my mind could muster is kancil. aku x pulak rasa ada sapa2 yg aku kenal sekarang ni tgh nak beli apa jua jenis kereta. what metaphor does it represent?

people lie. sometimes they do it to escape themselves, some because they don't want anybody to get hurt by the truth. yes i get that. but to keep on building lies upon lies? do they still do it out of compassion, or just because they know the other party would be stupid enough to believe all those lies?

what of the other side of the lie... kalau kita yg selalu dibohongi (ace.. mcm dlm novel lak haha), larat ke nak layan lagi org2 mcm ni. and which is worse: to give the liar the benefit of the doubt knowing the chance of him/her lying, or to doubt every little things he/she said even with all the supporting evidence.

sometimes i'd rather not dream at all...dreaming and hoping and wishing can be exhausting. especially when deep down you know all you have to do is take action.

uh-oh, gambar suda tidak keluar...

ok chiow.