today my arwah abang would've turned 33.
sometimes i only thought of him as going somewhere for some conferences or out-of-state jobs, and he would be back soon.
it would take me seconds to realize that it will never happen.
abang would never come back. ever.
and that makes me miss him even more.
The only thing that comforts me is when i think that Allah loves him more than we do.
Al-fatihah.
::The reason of a resolution is more to be considered than the resolution itself.::
allo (yea sudah bertukar).
busy sungguh... selaras dgn perkembangan ekonomi semasa haha.
anyway aku saja nak letak azam untuk tahun 2012... sbb bila dah publish, malu la pulak kalau tak follow kan. err ni pun sebab sebenarnya facilitator time team building yg aku gi dulu suh buat 3 objektif yg perlu dicapai sampai bulan mac nih. alang2, aku buat jadi azam terus.
1. lose some weight be healthy n fit(ter)
masalah ni xde la kronik mana (konon hehe), tapi aku rasa rakyat mesia sekarang makin mengecik. kalau aku tgk gambar, sume sama je rendah, sama je saiz. even though aku tinggi (konon jugak), kalau boleh biarlah org nampak ketinggian je bila tgk gambar aku, bukan kelebaran sekali.
yang penting, nak kasi nampak fit siket. at least, perut x membonjol. seriously susah nak sorok ok.
in realizing that, i'm currently taking some swimming lessons, and occasionally doing sauna. acewah... swimming sbb opis bayar, sauna sbb dah ada portable sauna kat rumah.
progress: nil. swimming baru sekali kelas, itu pun dah penat lenguh badan segala, nampak sgt x fit huwaa. sauna org ckp bagus buat 3 kali seminggu; yg seminggu aku dpt 3 kali baru sekali jek. timbang berat tgk kat nombor sama jek. tapi being a half-glass-full type of person, hey, at least it doesn't increase, right? right?
2. kurangkan perbelanjaan benda lagha belanja berhemah
utk simpanan masa depan... dengan kadar inflasi yg agak tinggi sekarang nih (~8%), aku kena menyimpan dgn lebih byk to compensate incoming price hike. dan juga angan-angan aku, andai ditakdirkan bernikah kahwin, kalau boleh nak guna duit sendiri auww. err tapi ni mcm susah gak, sbb sekarang sume nak grand belaka. dan memudahkan beli new wardrobe apabila azam #1 tercapai (konon).
steps taken: utilizing andromoney, one-stop for tracking and evaluating (and condemning) your expenses. you can set your yearly / monthly budget, and it will notify you if you're reaching a certain limit ('you've used 100% of your total budget!'). tiap2 hari aku update belanja aku kat sini, mmg boleh nampak la kat mana aku byk habiskan duit.
progress: sucks. aku dah la set bajet aku 100% dari gaji bersih, bulan ni yg baru nak masuk 3 minggu punya bajet dah -ve. big spender? entahlah... yg pastinya bulan ni mmg bertambah siket sbb azam #1 (mcm byk pun ko spend utk kelas berenang tu tet grrr). oh lupa pulak, perfume dah habis. cleanser pun dah habis.
kalau tahun ni xde bonus mati la aku. usahkan nak menyimpan, mcm lagi korek simpanan lagi ada.
3rd one? i haven't decided yet. lagipun faci tu nak aku simpan bukti yg menunjukkan effort terhadap objektif tu. mcm kalau azam #1 boleh tunjuk beza berat (atau paling koman pun tunjuk gambar aku gi kelas hehe), azam #2 lak boleh tunjuk expense chart or whatnot.
apa lagi objektif yg aku boleh capai dlm masa terdekat yg boleh menghasilkan sesuatu utk dijadikan bukti?
::The supreme accomplishment is to blur the line between work and play.::
one fine day in kota kinabalu, aku masuk ke kedai mesra petronas sbb nak cucuk duit. selepas urusan, aku pun bergegas ke pintu utk keluar, sbb x nak org lain tunggu. by org lain i mean my mother and a few makciks and pakciks and cousins.
on the way nak keluar tu, tiba2 kedgran lagu moves like jagger. sayup2 je gitu. terus aku gelabah. bukak beg. masa tu baru aku teringat, my ringtone is no longer that maroon 5's song. by that time dah terlewat aah, adik cashier tu dah tgk aku lain mcm je. mesti dia pelik, apsal minah ni tiba2 rotate badan pastu dgn kalutnya bukak beg, pastu senyum sorang2. gila ke apa.
i never cease to amaze me.
sometimes i wonder, what do ppl think when they see me. heck do they even see me.
not like i like being seen. i mean, if it's for the wrong reasons.
daym tiba2 teringat one of my bosses yg tau aku gi camping kat hutan belum, ada la borak2 dgn dia. aku cerita la ada air terjun, xde bilik air. sekali bos tanya, "mandi la kat air terjun tu?" zuppp terus mata dia scanned my body. @##$&% betulla aku rasa time tu. terus rasa nak tahan nafas pun ada (sbb perut agak buncit hehe). tapi aaaa benci aa kalau jadi mcm tu. i felt violated. okay maybe i'm exaggerating, but still, can anybody feel comfortable when ppl feast their eyes on you (okay xde la feast sgt pun, more like a sip of some bitter tea je kot). and i'm not even good looking to begin with. mcm mana la yg duk pakai sexy 24/7 boleh tahan dgn mata2 semua org.
so i come up with a conclusion: when you have a protruding belly, and you're wearing a baju kurung, your V stands out a wee bit too much. don't ask me to explain what i mean by V. how's that for motivation?
ok chiow.
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