kenangan silam

::So live that your memories will be part of your happiness.::

aku baru perasan friendster dah ubah wajah. well somebody did tell me friendster was moving towards becoming entertainment-oriented, but i thought it would be add-on to the existing friendster. that our old profiles, pics etc would still be there. darn i was wrong. terlepas lak notice kata nak delete sume tu.

blog lama aku dah hilang! sob sob.

padan la haritu aku try masuk chrome ckp x jumpa page. ingatkan ofis yg block ke, ada tukar apa2 kasi xleh ke, under maintenance ke. cis cis cis.

mcm ni la aku rasa masa my 1st blog dulu kena delete. haha not exactly my blog, blog yg ada byk writers, tapi aku je yg semangat tulis hehe. moderator bukan aku pulak tu, mmg hak dia la nak delete ('thanks' for the heads up, hilmi! ;p).

tiba2 je rasa fehlong jap. kenangan tuu... and boleh nampak my writing skills have gone downhill. biasa la dulu semangat nak cuba new words and phrases. sekarang ni grammar pun dah tunggang-langgang. budak urban lepasan pmr pun lagi power rasanya.

hopefully this one can live up to its predecessors. haha like they have a good rep to begin with.

ok chiow.

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no questions asked

::Be extremely subtle, even to the point of formlessness. Be extremely mysterious, even to the point of soundlessness. Thereby you can be the director of the opponent's fate.::

sorry...

lama siot x update. busy aah. well not that busy. i just don't have the mood.

been questioning myself lately. aku rasa lagi aku meningkat umur ni, bakti dan jasa pd diri sendiri, keluarga, negara, agama etc makin kurang. aku pun dah x tau apa purpose aku kat dunia ni (no i'm not saying i'm considering suicide or have given up hope or anything). aku just rasa aku lagi byk buat dosa je. lagi byk buang masa.

ah mainan perasaan je tu. syuh syuh gi main jauh2.

aku tau, setiap perkara yg terjadi tu ada sebabnya. utk menguji. makanya, adakah aku tewas?

apa aku mengarut nih hehe.

org kata bila kita hendak dptkan sesuatu, kita kena usaha. kena improve. sekarang ni aku rasa byk lagi benda yg aku x dpt lagi. so by right aku kena usaha dan perbaiki sesuatu utk dptkan benda2 itu. but right now, i think i've been doing the same things for the past 2 years or so. maybe i've changed the method here and there, but nevertheless my life's pretty much the same. so based on the lack of effort / improvement, would i get what i want? NO.

thing is, i'm so content with where i am at the moment, i don't want to jinx it. i just want to let things to be just the way they are. if changes are needed, then it won't come from me. let the nature do the talking (or walking?).

penakut? maybe. atau aku yg x mau salah langkah. i'm too old to test the water. i'd rather analyze the details and characteristics of the water then delve right into it (or not, depending my analysis).

gila poetic. haha lantak ah. otak bercelaru.

ok chiow.

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