drops of jupiter

::A critic is a gong at a railroad crossing clanging loudly and vainly as the train goes by.::

i wonder if i can make it?

will i make it?

- it doesn't come often, you know.

but, i don't know if i can catch it. it's still kinda far.

- you can make it! c'mon, it's right in front of you!

no, i don't think i can.

- yes you can. run faster!

i can't! i'm slow, remember?

- .. but what if you missed it? are you sure there'll be others coming? besides, who's judging?

i'm gasping for air as we speak.

- doesn't matter... go for it! see, you're halfway there already.

maybe i should just chill out. wait for the next one to come.

- nooo! then what's the point of struggling if you know you can catch it later? it might cost you your future. you don't want that, do you?

future? what does it have to do with what i'm doing here?

- everything, dammit! now run as it was your last run!

..yeah. i can't let my future be ruined for just one stupid mishap.

- now that's the spirit. you know you can make it.

it's just... tiring. having to do this every single day.

- that's what we called life.

okay, whatever. here goes nothing...

ktak ktak ktak ktak ktak ktak ktak.

i made it! woohoo!

"tuan-tuan dan puan-puan, pintu akan ditutup sebentar sahaja lagi."

you know, it's not the struggling that i despise. it's the looks i get fr other people. sometimes make me shudder.

- who cares about them. it's YOU that matters.

you're right. I decide.


ok chiow.

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share the blame

::Children might or might not be a blessing, but to create them and then fail them was surely damnation. ::

sick gila pembunuh kanak2 tu... either he ain't got it for a lonnng time, or he can't hold it anymore, or he did it for revenge. in short: SAIKO.

i'm not an expert in this, but personally, aku salahkan parents. mcm mana boleh biarkan anak sendiri x terjaga? mcm biarkan anak sorg2 gi pasar malam, biarkan anak gi terawih sorg2, x amik kisah pasal sapa kawan anak, etc. kalau x larat nak jaga anak sbb ramai sgt, then i'll say: bodoh punya alasan. time dulu2 x nak terpikir, bila dah besar baru nak ckp x larat nak jaga?

mmg org ckp anak tu rezeki, tapi kdg2 aku rasa kalau tiap2 tahun dapat anak, pastu hidup serba kekurangan, mana rezekinya? happy ke pun, kalau everyday anak mintak duit nak beli itu ini, yg si parents pulak kena habis masa nak cari duit, tang mana yg happy tu?

dulu bila aku dgr china kasik satu family dpt satu anak je, aku pikir mcm kejam gila... tapi sekarang aku rasa mcm patut je buat kat msia. berapa ramai budak2 lari dr rumah sbb asyik kena marah / x dpt kasih sayang. itu belum campur lagi yg still balik rumah tapi merogol, merompak, etc. kalau sume parents take care of anak masing2, xkan ada peer pressure. kalau sume parents amik tau perihal anak masing2, xkan ada budak2 lepak tgk porn. kalau sume parents galakkan anak2 diorg study, x kisah pun kalau cikgu2 rotan anak diorg. ni, yg jaga anak pun org lain, sibuk salahkan org lain kalau anak buat salah lak.

yg suka makeup / dressup anak2 pompuan sampai nampak mcm org dewasa tu pun satu. kenapa nak mendewasakan budak2 sebelum waktunya? take jonbenet's case, for example. ada pihak salahkan parents sbb selalu masukkan budak tu dlm beauty pageant, pakai seksi2, nyanyi lagu org dewasa. kalau ada org turn on pun nak kirakan, salah parents jugak sbb diorg yg tunjuk anak mcm tu. let the children grow up by themselves. it may or may not turn out good social-wise / personality-wise, but at least they have a chance to be grown-ups.

aku x ckp jaga anak senang, tapi kalau tau susah, fikir la dulu sebelum nak dpt anak tu. err kalau accidental tu lain cite la kot, xleh nak komen heheh.

ok chiow.

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taman negara endau rompin (part V)

err mcm star wars double trilogy lak...

the final day, 2 sept, berkemas la kitorg utk balik... terasa mcm sedih pulak siket2, sbb dah nak kerja balik, heheh. tapi sempat lagi bergambar, biasa la, kenang2an...

walaupun beg lagi berat dr masa dtg (sbb ada baju basah), tapi mmg semangat + laju je jln balik tu. well, dah naik sampai buaya sangkut la katakan (11km tuuu)... hehe perasan jap. mmg ceria aa balik tu. lagipun, lepas tu kitorg nak gi rafting pulak!

2nd raft: rizal, k imah, shahimi, k aida, aku, diad, nazir, redza; yg lain sume 1st raft. yg dlm 2nd raft ni, 3 org je pernah rafting sebelum ni. so mula2 tu asyik rotate 180 je raft. heheh, sampai kena tukar tpt duduk berapa kali tah. tapi t/hari tu punya la panas, dgn xde arus nya lagi, mmg penat aa paddling. sbb x nak kasik pusing, kitorg suem kena count: 1, 2, 3 nak kasi paddle sama2. tgk la airnya, tenang x sangga.

oleh sbb kitorg kat belakang, yg 1st raft tunggu kitorg sbb nak race. mula2 pikir mmg x aci aa, sbb kitorg tgh penat nak catch up dgn diorg, nanti terus start kan. pastu lak, mmg dlm 1st raft tu sume experienced paddlers, cikman tu licensed raft guide lagi. chuk, kat pulak pernah rafting sampai kat asahan, indonesia lagi. tapi, disbbkan kesepaduan kami, kayuh punya kayuh punya kayuh, yeaaa kami menang! heheheh mmg x sangka la. dah la tu, raft diorg boleh terpusing jugak tu. uih terasa bangga jugak la siket2. tapi ada sekali tu raft kitorg bertembung, diorg main percik2 air lak... dah la guna paddle tu, yg basah kuyupnya: akuuuu jugak. (sbb aku yg plg kanan). siut jek. tapi mmg nak mandi pun lepas tu.. so no worries.

sampai balik kat visitor center tu, lepas mandi2 sume, ada satu pakcik ni bawak tgk cth2 perangkap yg digunakan. ada tu scary jugak, sbb boleh bunuh tupai terus, tapi sekali imbas mcm harmless junk je. mcm kreatif la jugak.

last demo: menyumpit. tgk beza gaya pakcik tu dgn gayaku. kat situ ada belon2 digantungkan as target, so sapa kena mmg terer la. boleh dlm ramai2 tu, aku sorg je yg x sampai pun target tu? org lain sume walaupun x kena, tapi sampai kat board yg diorg gantung belon tu. kurang angin betul la...

4pm, kami pun berangkat pulang meninggalkan taman endau rompin yg indah itu... all the way surprisingly kitorg satu keta x tido langsung, well driver of course la kan. hehe yg lawaknya bila turun keta sorg2 jln mcm robot. sakit kaki siut... esp bhg atas peha. nasib baik dah apply cuti the next day, heheh. aku sampai rumah pun dlm kul 11 camtu (sbb berenti makan jugak).

overall, mmg satu benda yg baru jugak la. esp part trekking tu la, yg lain tu pernah gak tempuhi. dpt tambah kenalan lagi, lawak aa gak diorg ni. tambah member kat friendster, heheh. pengalaman yg x dpt dilupakan. utk sapa2 yg teringin nak ke sana, book la awal2. err aku pun x sure mcm mana, tapi ada la. kalau suka night walk tu, maybe akan suka kat sini, sbb lop ckp mlm2 byk binatang keluar. nak trekking 11km pun inilah tptnya, heheh.

ok chiow.

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