the storm is coming

somehow i can feel that sth bad is going to happen. some big thunderous storm that will change the future path.

i'm not worried about me; i know i can handle it, come what may. what i'm worried about most is others. or is it my role in helping the others? dunno.

and worst of all, i'm beginning to think that i am responsible for it. that i could've done sth to change it. to prevent it.

guilt, don't reside in me.

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akukah yg terlewat

::The multitude of books is making us ignorant.::

there's a few that i know wrote about / answered to the tag about books you've read / you can recall within 10 mins. i was voluntarily compelled to write one as well (hey they said you're free to tag yourself hehe), tapi disbbkan aku rasa bila aku baca org lain punya pun aku dah leh imagine what books i would put in the list, so it's not really within 10 mins of writing/recalling, which to me, would be cheating.

cthnya aku rasa kalau aku buat tag tu, aku akan letak books by judith mcnaught (you won't believe berapa byk her books bersepah kat dorm n kelas dulu). the thing is the 1st time i planned to do it, i didn't remember the titles and even the author's name. bila tgk kirah punya baru teringat. so it's not sth that i remembered all the time la kan. haha i don't even know what sticks in my mind at all times.

anyway satu buku yg aku confirm akan letak in the list is 'the lovely bones'. i remember it because at that time it's been #1 NYTimes best selling like, a year. so aku pun beli dgn harapan cerita dia best. tapi erm mcm x je, ke aku yg heartless. sekali hari ni kat yahoonews ada mention peter jackson is going to make the lovely bones the movie! ceh, now i (may) look like an opportunist. tumpang glamer buku yg bakal jadi movie, by peter jackson no less.

kesimpulannya: aku x boleh nak buat tag tu.

ok chiow.

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can't or won't?

::To be absolutely certain about something, one must know everything or nothing about it.::

selalunya kalau tv kat rumah rosak (and it always does), akan ada at least sorg ckp, "xkan amik electrical engineering x tau nak betulkan?" to the point that i myself wondered, "how come i don't know how to fix this?"

err seriously, am i supposed to know? 'coz the closest thing i learned about tv was in spm's fizik, about crt tube. even that's considered old-tech now, err i think.

adakah hanya kerana wujudnya perkataan 'electrical', so i'm expected to be electrician/engineer/maintenance caretaker/cable girl (oh yeah, sebelum adanya astro, nak carik channel kat tv sume aku yg buat) of the house? x dinafikan aku suka baca manual (ye la, mesti la tau mcm mana nak guna sesuatu barang tu kalau dah beli kan?), but that doesn't mean i'm the only one who can do it.

lagi satu, kalau nak call for enquiries. selalunya kalau nak call helpline la; e.g. streamyx (yg bongok yg belum dicancel lagi sbb xde org nak buat), points redemption, flight bookings, etc. i mean, tau la slang aku mcm american (hehe) tapi boleh je ckp melayu kat org tu. 1Malaysia what. and xde kena-mengena pun dgn major aku.

hmm yg amik chemistry tau ke nak buat all those drugs out there? i mean without referring to any books la. or make homemade remedies? yg amik law tau ke what law one violates everytime he/she does something?

erk aku mcm telah mencampur-adukkan isu.

anyway, aku x kisah kalau org mintak tlg sume, tapi alasan biar logik laa. dah la selalunya org yg take action yg disalahkan (ni selalunya parents aku la yg buat, suh aku call sume, tapi kalau apa2 x jadi according to what they hoped for, aku lak yg kena blame heheh).

tapi, kdg2 aku pelik gak dgn org yg x tau benda2 yg simple. ada kawan aku x tau mcm mana nak connect a printer to the pc. dahh kena ajar virtually. then again, almost everything can be found on the net. cara nak bubuh eyemo pun ada. just put a little effort on looking for it.

hehe ckp org, tapi aku rasa ada gak benda2 simple yg aku x tau buat.

apa yg aku merapu ni.

ok chiow.

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